Gay Utopia Symposium Now Online

The Gay Utopia symposium that I’ve been working on for the last several months is now online here. Here’s some more info:

The Gay Utopia is an online symposium devoted to exploring that ideal realm in which gender, sexuality, and identity dissolve. It includes poetry, artwork, comics, personal essays, reviews, fiction, drama, slash, and more by Ursula K. Le Guin, Jennifer Baumgardner, Dame Darcy, Johnny Ryan, Ariel Schrag, Julia Serano, Michael Manning, Matt Thorn, Neil Whitacre, Edie Fake, and a host of other contributors.

The forum covers an enormous range of topics,from early animation to Restoration romance novels, from horror films to shojo manga, from the kinship structure of ferns to the relationship between men and trucks. Some highlights are:

–Scott Treleaven classic 1997 essay on an unusual use for the orgasm

–Tabico’s insect-sex-zombie apocalypse

–Paul Nudd’s vile recipes for chutney

— Kinukitty on why teenage girls need more manporn

–gay utopia questions answered by a Giant Squid.

Incidentally, this forum has a fair bit of explicit adult content. Please proceed with caution if that seems advisable.

In other words, the Gay Utopia has something for everyone. Please come by and check it out.

Ariel Schrag: Somewhat Forgotten, But Not Gone

In the mid-90s, I moved to Chicago, and for the first time in my life had access to comic stores that carried an extensive range of indie titles. Some of these comics were interesting, some mediocre, some frankly bad. But there were two creators who dazzled me. Chris Ware was one. The other was a high-school -age, autobio comic writer named Ariel Schrag.

Schrag’s artwork was about as far as possible from Ware’s dazzling technical proficiency. What she had going for her was simple: she was one of the best pure story-tellers I had ever read, in any medium. She had a perfect eye for detail, a lovely sense of structure, and her jokes were laugh-out-loud funny. Even more remarkable in an autobiographical writer, her work was neither solipsistic nor self-pitying. Instead, Schrag’s witing was strangely, and often painfully, objective. Gossip, crushes, teen angst — all were portrayed with gushing enthusiasm, but also with a level of detachment. As a result, Schrag’s books were open-ended; family, friends, acquaintances, and Schrag herself all come under the same cold (though not unsympathetic) scrutiny. For example, the emotional center of “Awkward,” Schrag’s first collection, is the intense (non-sexual, non-romantic) friendship between Schrag and an older student named Meg. The girls’ motivations are largely opaque to the reader, to each other, and to themselves, and the final low-key but traumatizing break-up is described not so much without blame, as without any indication that blame is even an option. The questions and emotions raised by the interaction aren’t turned into any kind of transcendent realization or epiphany — they just sit there, a heavy, unreconciled weight.

“Awkward” was pretty great, but Schrag’s later books were even better. As she went along, she moved into more and more demanding material: her parents’ divorce; a series of abusive relationships; her struggles with her sexual identity. By her last series, “Likewise”, which covered her senior year, Schrag had developed a claustrophobic interior focus. Both the comics’ language and art shifted and contracted vertiginously, depending on her emotional state. The story could be hysterically funny — as in her lengthy description of her inability to wear low-slung jeans. It could also be harrowing, as in a time-distorted, Kafkaesque encounter with her ex. But even as her material became more subjective, Schrag retained her clinical objectivity; the result is a kind of ruthless vivisection which begins with Schrag herself and extends to everything and everyone she encounters or cares about. If you haven’t read it, you’re missing out; it’s one of the great achievements of contemporary comics.

Or it would have been if she’d finished it. Unfortunately, issue #3 of 8 came out two years ago, and then…nothing. Schrag, who had graduated from college, moved on to other projects — most notably writing for the television drama “The L-word” — and her series was left in limbo. Schrag herself went from being criminally undervalued to virtually invisible. Even her publisher, Slave Labor, seemed to have forgotten about her; at least, I couldn’t find anyone there who would return my calls and tell me where she was. (UPDATE: In the comments to this post, Slave Labor’s Editor in Chief Jennifer de Guzman objects to this characterization, and provides some more details about the relationship between Schrag and SLG.)

Luckily, thanks to the miracle that is Google, I was able to track Schrag down anyway — and I was pleased to discover that she is, in fact, far from being done with comics. In fact, she just finished editing an anthology of strips about Middle School for Viking Children’s Books titled “Stuck in the Middle: 17 Comics from an Unpleasant Age.” It’s due for release in August 2007 and will feature new work by Gabrielle Bell, Dash Shaw, Lauren Weinstein, Ariel Bordeaux and Aaron Renier, as well as reprints by Dan Clowes and Joe Matt. Schrag also included two of her own strips — one, entitled “Shit,” salvaged from Megan Kelso’s ill-fated “Scheherezade.”

Even more welcome is the news that Schrag plans to finish “Likewise.” As she noted at the beginning of the published issues, the entire comic was drawn years ago — all she has left is the inking. When I spoke to her in late October, she said that she had finished about 200 pages out of 358 — so she could in theory put out issue #4 of the series now. But instead, Schrag has decided to finish the entire story and then publish it in book form. When this will happen is a little unclear, since she has to devote most of her time to other, paying projects. But “I have to finish it before I’m 30,” Schrag (who’s now 26) insisted. “That’s the time limit I’ve put on myself. Hopefully it’ll be done in the next two years, but it’ll absolutely be done before I’m 30.”

In the meantime, Schrag’s written a bunch of other comics. A few of these were collected in “Linens and Things,” a zine she self-published in 2003 — and she hopes to collect even more in a larger volume with the same title. “Some of [the strips] are strict autobiography,” she said, “and some are more experimental. But a lot of it is just being inspired to tell stories in a different way.” For example, some of the strips are told through the voice of her girlfriend, with Schrag herself as a supporting character. Another group of drawings was prompted by James Kochalka’s Sketchbook Diaries: Schrag did a comic a day for four months while she was studying abroad in Berlin.

The photocopied version of “Linens and Things” had a couple of fictional stories too, a significant switch for Schrag. In a 1999 interview for the website Sequential Tart, Schrag said that she was “totally disinterested” in fantasy. But her experience writing for the “L-word” has helped to change her mind. Now she finds fiction fascinating, in part because its sources are mysterious. In autobiography, you know pretty much where your stories are coming from, but “in fiction, you’ll let [an idea] come from somewhere you aren’t as conscious of, and then you’ll go back over it and say, huh, this relates to my life in this way, or I probably got this from that, and you can speculate,” she said.

The “L-Word” has also provided a sense of community. Television is a collaborative process; six or seven writers gather together, knock around ideas, talk some more, revise, and so forth. In contrast, Schrag said, “drawing comics is really lonely. That’s what wonderful about comics; it’s all yours, just you and the paper. But then I’m also young. I don’t want to live the life of the hidden away man in glasses hunched over a desk all the time.”

Schrag also found the discipline of writing for a larger audience interesting. “For ‘Likewise’ I was so inspired by *Ulysses,* I wanted to spend 50 pages of just riding on a bus and not talking to anyone and just thinking, or I wanted to have something which didn’t make sense, or only made sense to me and would hopefully make some sort of interesting sense to somebody else in their own life. And now on the ‘L-word’ I’ve gotten to experience the other side of creation, not that we’re catering to a certain kind of writing, but telling something for story effect..”

For all these reasons, Schrag’s eager to work on other television projects if the opportunity presents itself. And she’s also been moving forward on a feature-film version of Potential (the story of her junior year) — the script is written and director Rose Troche (Go Fish, The Safety of Objects) has signed on. Still, Schrag said, “I don’t feel that I’m moving away from comics. They’ll always be my heart. They’ll always be the way that I want to tell a story more than anything.” And she added, “I get the most inspired or I feel the most drive to do autobiographical stories; for me it’s this obsession with holding on to the past.” She still keeps a diary and hordes scraps of paper. “Whenever something happens, “ she said, “it flashes across my mind into comics form. I don’t always get to write all of those down, but the idea of turning those events into comics is really exciting to me. The fictional stuff is more sort of fun, but I don’t have the same compulsion to do it.”

While she’s committed to comics as a form, Schrag agreed that her presence in the comics scene has diminished considerably. In part, this is because her own interest has waned. “When I was a teenager, going to conventions and doing all that was so exciting to me, and all that attention that all the creepy old men paid to me was, y’know, gross, but appealing in its own way. And then at a certain point it just stopped being as exciting.”

Part of her disinterest in the comics scene, though, is because of its disinterest in her. “I never got the props I felt I really deserved,” she admitted. “It sometimes would annoy me when I would see people getting attention that I felt I should have gotten, or should get. But at the same time I feel I get that respect from other places.” She added that *The Comics Journal* itself had done little to acknowledge her work. “I just always had this vision that my movie would come out and they’d all come crawling back,” she laughed. “And I’d be like, ‘Too late. You should have liked me back when I was doing comics, not movies.’ But I guess that never happened.”

When asked if she thought that the lack of respect was because she was a woman, Schrag seemed annoyed but didn’t exactly disagree. “I don’t want to sit around and complain about being a woman or being gay, or whatever it is you’re supposed to be being oppressed for. You know, I think it goes both ways. I think that women in general don’t get as much respect [in comics]. I think some people hear about me and they pigeon-hole my work as being gay. But then again I probably wouldn’t have gotten the job on ‘The L-word’ if I weren’t gay. It’s not really worth agonizing or even wondering…the people who want to appreciate it can and will.

“Me and Gabrielle Bell get together and sometimes we just talk about how annoying it is that there’s all these young, indie boy cartoonists, and their comics are all style and no substance, and they just get so much attention, and it’s just like, why? It’s true more so in comics, more so than in other mediums. You’ll read people say about a woman cartoonist, ‘That’s in the style of Phoebe Gloeckner and Julie Doucet,’ and the woman cartoonist has nothing more in common with those cartoonists than anyone else, except that she’s a woman. Comics is still very much a man’s world. It’s so irritating to have to talk about that now. I mean if I’m talking to you, why should I have to talk about being a woman? It’s so unfortunate.”

Whatever her frustrations with the comics scene, Schrag was clear that she was still involved in it. “I may not go to all the conventions, but I still love comics. Stuff like Julie Doucet dropping out of comics really depresses me. And she’s got her own agenda in life, I’m not judging her, but it’s sad that she doesn’t do it. I wouldn’t want anybody to think that I’ve gone down a similar path.”

First published in The Comics Journal #282 from April 2007

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My review of the Touchstone Books reissue of Ariel Schrag’s books Awkward and Definition, is on the Comics Reporter website here.

Ariel Schrag has also contributed a piece to the Gay Utopia symposium I’m putting together. Other contributors will include Dame Darcy, Johnny Ryan, Lilli Carré, Ursula K. Le Guin, and a whole host of others. I’m hoping to post it in a couple of months; check back here for details.

Fetish of Media Empire

I have a review of Michael Manning and Patrick Conlon’s Tranceptor Series online over at the Reader now:

Extra bonus: Puritans run amok in the comments section!

For those who want more Manning, his website is here.

Manning has actually contributed a pretty terrific essay about Aubrey Beardsley to the Gay Utopia symposium I’m putting together. I’ll post some more info about that symposium in the coming weeks.

Fletcher Hanks

For a moment I forgot the title of this Fletcher Hanks book, and was convinced it was actually All your base are belong to us. That’s not right, of course — the real title of the book is I Shall Destroy All Civilized Planets! But the slip up isn’t exactly an accident either. He’s a lot like a mangled, mistranslated Internet catch-phrase; a lot of his appeal is the outsider-art one of being naive/incompetent in a surprising way.

The fetishization of outsider art is always a little uneasy. Outsider artists are, by definition, distant from centers of cultural power, and their kooky stories (insane, marginal, loopy) are often as important to their mystique as the art itself. So you end up with a lot of cultural elites patting themselves on the back because they get the genius of this artist and understand him in a way that normal people don’t. It’s a way for bourgeois hipsters (a redundancy, of course) to pretend that they’re actually more prole than the proles. It’s icky — and it’s certainly in full effect here. The book includes a final section by editor Paul Karasik which is, rather presumptiously, in comics form. Anyway, Karasik repeatedly points out that he recognizes the genius that is Hanks even though most people (Karasik’s mother, Hanks’ own son) do not. We also get the scanty biographical details which place Hanks firmly as an outsider — he was a mean drunk, a wife-beater, and a child-abuser, who died penniless. No quite Henry Darger, but it’ll do.

The thing is, you know, I’m a bourgeois hipster myself, and I do think Darger is brilliant. Hanks too, for that matter. His use of color alone is stunning: lots of solid contrasting areas of, bright, almost lurid tones; Lichtenstein or Warhol would eat their hearts out. Fantagraphics reproduces each shade lovingly, and the result is marvelous. The drawing is also distinctive and energetic; stiff stylized poses, weirdly bland faces for the heroes, exaggeratedly twisted features for the villains. Hanks is also amazingly imaginative, in that way that outsider art can be — making connections that are weird and lovely, in an aphasiac kind of way. In a typical story, a crime syndicate distributes an oxygen destroying ray so that it is beside every single important person in America. They set off the ray by remote control and everyone starts to suffocate. But Stardust the super-wizard sees they’re evil plotand appears in a flash. He destorys the radio outlet, finds the gang leader resonsible, and shoots a ray at him which makes his head grow large and his body shrink. Then he takes the bodiless headand take sit to the “space pocket of living death, where the headless headhunter dwells! He’s the hugest giant in the known universe!” Stardust throws the head into the space pocket, where it lands on the headhunter’s headless shoulders, and then sinks into its body. Stardust returns to earth, attracts all the remaining gangmembers to a central place, and uses his rays to turn them all into a single person. then he sends them off into space. The end.

This is the basic Hanks plot (more or less). The stories generally involve a hideous and unlikely plot (creating an enomrous tidal wave, or making earth and venus run into each other, or stopping the earth’s rotation so everyone will fly into space and the bad guys can have the planet to themselves (the bad guys hold themselves to the earth with chains, you see, so they won’t be affected.)) The omnipotent super-hero waits until some fairly large number of people have been killed, then swoops down and enacts a bizarre and gruesome multi-stage revenge.

Obviously this is all totally tripped out, and there are a bunch of testimonials from aging hippies — R. Crumb calling Hanks a “twisted dude,” Gary Panter referring to the strips as “magic jellybeans,” Kurt Vonnegut enthusastically praising it as a “major work of art.” Again, I don’t necessarily disagree, but there is a certain dissonance. I mean, not to state the obvious or anything, but these strips are really, really, really fascist. The super-hero genre in general — with its simple-minded emphasis on good vs. evil and revenge narratives — tends to be fairly pro-police-state, but Hanks goes above and beyond. The stories are all about the joys of imaginatively torturing bad guys to death. The balance of power is completely one-sided; the super-heroes can do anything. It’s a lot like the God-as-Superman-as-Asshole comics independently invented by Chris Ware and Johnny Ryan — except there isn’t any irony here, unless you bring your own. Authority here is all-seeing, and good is defined almost completely in terms of revenge and the exercise of power. It’s just a little weird to see a bunch of lefty, free-speech types falling over themselves to embrace a work of art which seems pretty clearly to be in favor of forced, inventive extermination of the riff raff. And maybe I’m making a leap here, but I’d bet that for Hanks that riff raff would include a certain number of high-brow lefty weirdos like Crumb, Panter, Vonnegut, et al.

Part of appreciating outsider art is, of course, being able to enjoy the crackpottery from a safe distance. You can enjoy a powerful belief system by appreciating it rather than actually, you know, believing in it — or even engaging with it. I’d certainly agree that Hanks is a great artist. Like many other great artists (Ezra Pound, Yeats, Kipling, Lawrence…) he’s also kind of a moral abomination. I think it’s maybe more respectful to point that out than it is to enthuse about his formal qualities and imagination (as Karasik does) without responding to the actual content of his work.

Nana #7-#8

I’ve reviewed various volumes of Ai Yazawa’s Nana before, so I thought I’d keep it up. (There are going to be spoilers, incidentally — be warned.)

I just read #7-8, and they seem to be something of a watershed for the series. The series has always followed on both Nana’s (Nana Komatsu, or Hachi, and Nana Osaki), who live together and have recently become close friends. Up to this point, though, Hachi has been the narrator and we’ve been more inside her head. In 8 though, Nana O starts to give the earnest (and somwhat irritating, I’m forced to admit) voice overs. More importantly, she starts to reveal more of herself. It’s been clear for awhile that Hachi has an enormous crush on Nana; she’s fascinated with her music, with her confidence, and with her general hipster vibe. Nana has always seemed very fond of Hachi, but it’s been leavened with a bit of condescension and amusement — certainly she hasn’t appeared to be infatuated. When she kissed Hachi earlier in the series, it was a way to freak her friend out, not an actual expression of borderline desire.

But in 7 and 8, the perspective shifts slightly, and the relationship between Hachi and Nana is subtly but definitely upended. As we get more inside Nana’s head, it becomes clear that her occasional coldness towards Hachi isn’t because she’s aloof, but because she’s shy. While Nana has a long-term boyfriend, and seems very capable of dealing with male friends, her intense reaction to Hachi has completely befuddled her. After a moment of toying with the idea, the book sets aside the suggestion that Nana’s emotions are sexual, but they are certainly possessive and seem in some ways to be more powerful than what she feels for her boyfriend. She rather desperately tries to set Hachi up with Nobu, who is Nana’s childhood friend and bandmate, because she hopes to keep Hachi in her circle permanently. When (and here’s the spoiler) Hachi spoils that by accidentally getting pregnant by another man named Takumi, Nana quietly but completely freaks out.

What’s particularly heart-tugging here is that, for all her sincere depth of emotion, Nana is (as she seems to fear) too wrapped up in her own anxieties and self-doubts to actually help Hachi — who, it seems quite possible, wouldn’t have been sleeping with Takumi if she hadn’t felt that things with Nana were quite so unrequited. And when she hears about Hachi’s pregnancy, Nana basically runs away. It’s up to Hachi’s friend Juno (little seen since the first volume) to provide advice and reassurance — which she does in one of the most amazing scenes in the series. Juno’s completely ruthless (“This is what you get for sleeping around and being carless! Do you understand that!”) but also loving and helpful, offering actual clarity and insight rather than bullshit platitudes. She, too, seems freaked out (“I can’t believe she’s having a baby…I’m so worried I could puke.”) But she puts her own shit aside for her friend. Nana can’t do that — which is heartbreaking, not just for Hachi, for for Nana as well.

The art is, as always, amazingly subtle; Juno’s stricken expression in particular just kills me, and the layout and design couldn’t be much better. This is the bestselling manga in Japan, and no wonder — it’s just about perfect.

Identity Art

All images ©Edie Fake. Used by permission.

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cover of Gaylord Phoenix #1

Gender is a relative phenomenon. To many red-blooded, sports-loving Americans, any serious interest in a quaint aesthetic medium like comics is likely to brand you as artsy, nerdy, and generally feminized. Similarly, many Wizard-readers and John Byrne devotees view indie comics fans as…artsy, nerdy, and generally feminized. And within the independent comics community itself, aficionados of the blood, scat, and sex of the old-style undergrounds tend to see the new, psychedelic, pastel, collaborative projects of Paper Rad as — you know the drill.

And yet, in many ways the Fort Thunder/Paper Rad axis is one of the more convincingly masculine endeavors in American comics history. Super-heroes, with their bulging muscles, high-camp exterior underwear, and soap-opera plots, are pretty darn gay, as I am not the first to point out. Similarly, the traditional underground’s guilty focus on male arousal and bodily functions reads as an adolescent (and therefore feminized) imitation of manliness, rather than as the real deal. In contrast, Fort Thunder’s intricate formal textures and its improvisatory swagger put it firmly in the bone-headed tradition of male-artist-as-incomprehensible-genius that stretches from James Joyce to Jackson Pollock to Bono and beyond. Forget the day-glo teddy bears (and the fact that some of the Fort clique are women) — Fort Thunder’s art is about the tiresomely agonistic psycho-drama of proving you’ve got it — and, in this context, the thing you’ve got is inevitably going to be gendered male.

Which brings us to Edie Fake and his self-published mini-comic series Gaylord Phoenix. Fake isn’t exactly part of the Fort Thunder crowd — he’s a little too young, for one thing — but he did do some time in Providence, and his work has more than a touch of the Fort’s sensibility. The emphasis of his art is not on realism or narrative clarity, but rather on two-dimensional patterning. Foreground elements — characters, props, even text — are rendered in a simple, child-like manner, while the background designs and page layouts incorporate the sophisticated conventions of modernist abstraction and collage. But while the visual cues may be Paper Rad, much of the action in Fake’s comic is lifted right out of the ’60s underground; there’s lots of sex, lots of grotesque dismemberment, and a queasy tendency to link the two. So, on the surface, Gaylord Phoenix seems to have one foot in the male-gendered avant-garde and one in the male-gendered rape fantasies of the head shop.

Of course, “seems” is the operative word here — that, and possibly “Gaylord.” Fake is a female-to-male transsexual and his take on gender is, umm, queer. Though he uses multiple male idioms, they tend to undermine rather than reinforce each other. The abstraction, for example, distances the sex and violence; when someone’s penis looks like a macaroni tube (or a giant bundle of macaroni tubes), it’s difficult to be titillated by the ensuing action. Similarly, the narrative elements which link Gaylord Phoenix to comics history keep it from functioning as a truly virile avant-garde statement.

In fact, when you read it closely, Phoenix starts to look a lot less like any sort of male-gendered project and a lot more like that most stereotypically female of genres, fantasy romance. The plot centers on the title character, Gaylord Phoenix, who, against a backdrop of otherworldly landscapes, magical creatures, and ominous portents, seeks love and self-knowledge. Like many a romance heroine, Phoenix is possessed of buried powers and is, moreover, subject to fits of amnesia — thus exterior quest and interior journey are bound together by mystery, and the book is ultimately about the magic of becoming a woman.

Or a man. Or something. Gaylord Phoenix seems male, anyway (though his penis does go AWOL on a couple of occasions), and his lovers are either male also or else of no discernible gender. This doesn’t necessarily violate romance paradigms, of course, especially in the age of yaoi and its pretty bishonen boys. Yet, as a romance protagonist, Phoenix does have some serious drawbacks. The stars of romance, as every girl knows, are supposed to be glamorous, or cute, or both. Gaylord Phoenix is emphatically neither — with his giant nose, razor teeth, spindly naked body, and obtrusive body hair, he’s unlikely to be mistaken for Sailor Moon. And while a traditional romance protagonist may be dangerous in a brooding, gothic idiom, he/she still doesn’t generally turn into an evil doppelganger and dismember his/her sexual partner after coitus.

Gaylord Phoenix doesn’t quite jibe as a romance for the same reason it doesn’t quite jibe as anything else. Gender and genre share more than just a Latin root; they’re bound together, and if you violate the conventions of one, the conventions of the other start to unravel as well. The result in Gaylord Phoenix is that, while some individual moments are familiar enough, they never fit together in the way you’d expect. For example, at the beginning of issue 4, Phoenix is summoned through a magic ritual performed by a group of four rather grotesque wizards, all of whom share a single gigantic beard. Phoenix asks them to help him find his evil doppelganger “other.” The wizards tell him “the other lies within you”: a straight-forward, high-fantasy, Jungian Yoda interchange. Then, on the next page, and without missing a beat, the wizard-clump offers “to draw [the other] out” — and proceeds to perform oral sex on our hero.

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Gaylord Phoenix #4

Surreal shifts in genre and tone are a pomo default setting at this point, of course, from the smarmy ironic nudge-nudge of McSweeney’s to the exhilarating ironic bricolage of Japanese post-everything rockers the Boredoms. But that’s not where Gaylord Phoenix is coming from either. In the first place, Fake’s narrative doesn’t have the forced, performative feel of Borges — or of Paper Rad, for that matter. Nor is Gaylord Phoenix ironic. In fact, everything that happens in the story has an elegant, even heart-felt logic. Thus, in the scene with the wizards, it makes perfect sense for them to try to bring forth Phoenix’s “other” through fellatio — remember, the doppelganger manifests after Phoenix has sex. Moreover, throughout the book, and with pornographic inevitability, everyone Phoenix meets wants to fuck him. But though the wizard menage is telegraphed in some sense, it’s still basically asexual-wise-men porn. As such, it caught me completely off-guard, even on my second time through.

Fake’s use of narrative is deft and surprising. As in dreams, however, while the existence of the plot is important, the twists and turns are not exactly the point. Thus, the summary of issue 1 at the beginning of issue 2 is more than a simple recap. It’s a work of art in itself — a koan stenciled in uneven lines and written in a half-cracked patois (“the gaylord phoenix/born of crystal claw/killed his love on desrt [sic] sand &/ flees to pyramidal city/while his murder dies/ below the earthshell.”) In fact, throughout the series, the parts and the whole don’t so much compete as shimmer and change places. Instead of using traditional panel borders, Fake treats each page or two-page spread as an individual composition. In one image, Phoenix’s headless lover spouts gorgeous, simplified leaf shapes and giant, almost photo-realistic nuts and bolts from his neck stump and tubular penis. In another, a centered, black, ghost-like creature with fangs explodes in a twisting mass of severed tentacles and wounded swordfish from the mouth of a textured volcano; to the sides, forming a kind of background, are masses of intricately and identically patterned fish. In an image from the fourth book, which uses green as a spot color, Phoenix stands in a forest — five black-and-white tree trunks rise up to a mass of black and green geometric leaf shapes which form an impenetrable canopy; a black cloak floats in the air, spouting leaves, while above Phoenix’s head the stenciled text ominously reads, “You are under many spells.”

I could go on. And on. Every time you turn the page — especially in issues 2, 3, and 4 — you’re looking at a different, separately imagined work of art. Obviously, this doesn’t contribute to speed of reading. Instead, the narrative slows down, frozen, as you take in each image. The sequential movement of the book is vitiated; it doesn’t really read like a comic at all. Instead, it’s like pictures from a dream — or an art gallery. Indeed, in both his obsession with design and in his elegant mastery of the boundary between representation and abstraction, Fake seems like a Bauhaus artist who has wandered out of his proper era, a formalist mystic cast adrift in a sea of slapdash, toked-up mini-comics rebels.

Not that Fake is Paul Klee — or anybody else, for that matter. Gaylord Phoenix is that true rarity, an honest-to-God uncategorizable piece of art. At some moments, the strangeness is deliberately awkward and funny, as in a goofily suggestive scene where the black ghost/sea vapor creature hangs above a psychedelic whirlpool and inquires suggestively, “do you admire my vortex?” At other moments, though, the sense of alienation is haunting, or even oppressive. During a sex scene in issue #2, a resurrected, hypnotized man with visible stitches around his neck has sex with a variably humanoid crocodile. In one ecstatic drawing, the crocodile’s tail goes into the man’s anus and out his mouth. In another, the man is three men, one sitting astride the crocodile, one with the crocodile’s nose in his tube-like, oddly vaginal penis, and one with the crocodile’s tail going into his ass, the tip emerging from his cock. In the background, vaguely organic forms flow and pulse, each tiled with what looks like crocodile scales.

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Gaylord Phoenix #2

These sequences again suggest Fake’s connection with romance. This is a tradition in which identity, gender, and sex are both linked and fluid, leading to the compulsive body-morphing and androgyny in shoujo or the oceanic fusion with nature in D. H. Lawrence’s love stories. Usually in romance, though, there’s something to hold on to (genre tropes and drawing style in shoujo; the realism of Lawrence) which makes the mystical experience of desire seem, well, mystical. For Fake, though, there’s no anchor to which the self is attached before it comes under assault. In the first scene of the first book, Gaylord Phoenix (sans penis) is “exploring the secret grotto” (the unconscious? the womb?) when he is attacked by “crystal claw,” which enters him through his leg and brings his doppelganger (and his male genitalia) into being. There’s no moment when he is himself. On the contrary, his lack of identity — his bifurcation, his memory loss, his sexual ambiguity — is what defines him. Similarly, he and other characters move from landscape to landscape (cave, maze, sea, forest) with the unpredictable suddenness of Alice falling down the rabbit hole. But this isn’t Alice. Fantasy and reality, internal and external, aren’t even provisionally distinguishable. The self and the world are one constantly mutating whole. There is no waking up.

Fake’s disquieting perspective on gender sets Gaylord Phoenix apart even from other queer-positive comics, like Alison Bechdel’s Fun Home. Bechdel’s book is, like many gay narratives, obsessed with the dichotomy between truth and fiction, and with the importance of being faithful to one’s real self. The catch is that the structure, or “self”, of Bechdel’s by-the-numbers memoir is a cluster of clichéd literary tropes: as the old joke goes, the book urges you to be unique, just like everybody else. Gaylord Phoenix, on the other hand, is really and truly bizarre, in part because it seems to deny the possibility, or even the existence, of a separate, distinct inner core.

Fake’s vision is a little closer to that of Lost Girls — in which Alan Moore and Melinda Gebbie imagine a sunlit tomorrow where bodies and pleasures flow deliriously and without restriction. The difference it that, in Gaylord Phoenix, the merging of id, ego and reality is not a hope for the future, but the world as it is, and it’s not exactly a utopia. Who we are and what we want — our relationship to each is like our relationship to dreams, mutable, illusory, and tenuous. For Fake, “queer” isn’t a biological quirk, or a marketing niche, or even an oppressed minority. Instead, it’s an insight: a recognition that the boundaries of our desires, and therefore of our identities, are both arbitrary and fragile. That recognition is sometimes beautiful and sometimes frightening, but it is always there, and it is inescapable. “Help yourself,” Phoenix’s companion tells him at the end of issue four. It’s good advice, offered with love. But it also prompts the question, “Help who?”

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Gaylord Phoenix #3

A version of this essay was first published in The Comics Journal
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Edie Fake’s website is here.

Edie Fake is participating in a symposium on the Gay Utopia which I’ve organized, and which should be online (hopefully) in late January or early February. Other participants include Dame Darcy, Johnny Ryan, Ariel Schrag, Dewayne Slightweight, Ursula K. Le Guin, Jennifer Baumgardner, Scott Treleaven, and more.

Accepting Porn As Your Personal Savior

This is a work of pornography — not erotica — which also presents itself as a work of art. The graphical style is gorgeous and distinctive, the characters have individual personalities, and their relationships are respectfully and realistically explored in a way designed to appeal to women as well as men. The sex is violent, complicated, straight, gay, sadistic, very occasionally vanilla, and woven seamlessly into the storyline. I’m talking, of course, about Michael Manning’s *Spidergarden* series.

All right, it’s my little joke —I’m reviewing *Lost Girls,* just like everybody else. But one of the things that has annoyed me about the hype surrounding Alan Moore and Melinda Gebbie’s book is the suggestion — promulgated by both authors and reviewers — that our culture is somehow starved for aesthetically pleasing, intellectually serious stroke material. Granted, there is a lot of crappy porn out there — but then, there is an almost unlimited quantity of *every* kind of porn out there. Underage porn? Sure. Porn with people dressed up in bunny suits? Check. Porn created by surprisingly clever people with humor, insight, wit and taste? Yes, indeed, grasshopper, for the Internet is vast, and most of it is devoted to smut. (As just one example, check out EyeofSerpent.) Even the use of pre-existing characters in compromising positions has become common — though, to be fair, slash fiction was a lot less high-profile when Moore and Gebbie first decided to, er, fool around with Wendy, Dorothy, and Alice 15 years ago.

Don’t get me wrong. I liked a lot of things about Lost Girls, even if it doesn’t exactly reinvent porn as we know it. It’s an ambitious and often bizarre undertaking, produced with obvious care. Moore’s decision to refer to it as pornography rather than erotica is admirable, and it is refreshing to see a book with this kind of aesthetic cache and marketing budget present itself so directly as an aid to orgasm, complete with contortionist sex positions, multiple partners, full-frontal everything, and even the occasional gratuitous slurping. In that vein, and purely as porn, it worked for me in the utilitarian way that such things do — there were scenes I found stimulating, they occurred with relative frequency, and the action that happened in the intervals wasn’t so off-putting that it killed the mood. I found the adult Wendy’s progress from buttoned-up, repressed Victorian housefrau to insatiable, big-bosomed tart particularly scorching. (Which means, I suppose, that, like Alan Moore, I enjoy the idea of fucking with the bourgeoisie.)

Despite its pleasures, though, there are some serious problems with the book. Moore and Gebbie clearly have an encyclopedic knowledge of Edwardian smut, but they have some trouble translating that into formal mastery. Gebbie’s artwork is hard to evaluate in the black-and-white photocopies we were sent for review, but the color panels I have seen are underwhelming. I admire her ambition, and I’m all for ravishing confectionary art, but Gebbie just doesn’t have the chops to pull it off. Her drafting isn’t strong enough to render anatomy convincingly, nor is it stylized enough to make up for the deficiency. Her color sense is erratic — some of the panels really work, but others are garish and even ugly. Her designs and layouts are okay, but hardly arresting. When Moore’s script calls for her to mimic the styles of artists like Aubrey Beardsley or John Teniel, her limitations become painfully obvious.

Like the art, the plot and writing both creak audibly. Moore has always been a heavy-handed writer, but in books like Halo Jones and Watchmen, he had such a thorough grasp on the genre material that it didn’t matter. At his best, even his clumsiness takes on meaning, irony, and resonance — the pirate sequence in Watchman, for example, is both ridiculously over the top and cool as hell, just like the pulp masterpieces it draws on.

There are great moments in Lost Girls too: I love the scene where Wendy, says goodbye to her husband from an upper-story window; he thinks she’s wailing in despair at his departure, when actually a bellhop is fucking her from behind. In general, though, throughout the book, Moore seems ever so slightly — well, lost. The idea of sexualizing famous children’s stories is a good one: I certainly found the transformations in the Alice tales weirdly erotic when I was a kid. Moore’s follow-through, however, is only sporadically successful. The Jabberwocky as a giant penis is funny — but it’s ruined when Moore has to tell us that it’s going to “jab” Alice. Dorothy masturbating while the tornado hits is okay; the labored metaphors which transform her subsequent lovers into the scarecrow, lion, and tin woodsman, on the other hand, wander dangerously close to the earnest pretension of literary fiction. In fact, much of Dorothy’s dialogue sounds like it was written in a college creative writing workshop by a Reynolds Price wannabe. One colorful, earthy metaphor per page is plenty, thank you very much.

Moore also has trouble with another of the goals he and Gebbie set for themselves; that is, creating pornography which will appeal to both genders. Women like all different kinds of porn, just as men do, of course, and I’m certain that there are many women besides Gebbie who will get off on Lost Girls. But there is, in fact, a lot of porn (not erotica, please note) written by women, for women out there, and it has tropes which distinguish it pretty clearly from porn designed for men only. Lost Girls does make some effort to incorporate a few of these: for instance, there is some male/male sex, which (as yaoi teaches) many heterosexual women like. But it’s not very central to the action; certainly it’s much less prominent than female-female sex, which (as most all porn teaches) heterosexual men like. Gebbie’s lacy, pastel artwork is very femme and may well entice some female readers, as may the fact that the protagonists are drawn to look like people, rather than blow-up dolls or supermodels.

But in all porn that has successfully connected with a large female audience, there is one common ingredient which is conspicuously absent from Lost Girls: romance. The possibility of love is only even hinted at a couple of times, and then it’s quickly dropped in the interest of further zipless fucks. Dorothy, Wendy, and Alice may like and care for each other, but they’re not “in love” with each other — they’re friends with benefits, which is to say they all behave like stereotypical male fantasies, not like stereotypical female ones. In Lost Girls, sex is about getting off, not about a particular partner — there’s no jealousy, not a whole lot of idealization, and almost no unrequited anything for even a panel. As a result, the fulfillment of every desire — for a stranger, for a friend, for a mentor, even for a father — feels more or less the same as the fulfillment of every other desire. That’s not the case in romance novels (which can be extremely explicit); it’s not the case in yaoi, or in slash fiction, or in virtually any other subgenre of porn that targets women. It’s consistent enough that I’m willing to go out on a limb and state in print that I am sure that Michael Manning’s hardcore fetish comics — which are all about relationships, relationships, relationships — have a significant female readership. (I do have some anecdotal evidence to back this up; my wife is a big Michael Manning fan.)

A lot of porn for guys is struttingly, or gleefully, or brutally loveless, without any aesthetic disjunction. But in Lost Girls the lack of love creates a sense of strain, and is responsible, I think, for the comics most noticeable and surprising failure, given its source material — a lack of magic. Moore and Gebbie try diligently to suffuse their world with a mystical significance, where bodies and identities fuse and flow. But all of their efforts — from the full-page fantasy money-shots to the game of dress-up the protagonists play at the end — seem didactic and forced. Again, a comparison with Michael Manning is instructive: in Manning’s work, characters change into furniture or animals, change loyalties, change genders, change personalities, duplicate themselves and lose themselves in a seamless erotic blur. Shojo manga too (though often less sexually explicit) projects a sense of trembling possibilities, as if every character is constantly on the verge of dissolving in a wave of longing and desire, It’s romance, of course, with its destruction of proportions and its vertiginous assault on the self, which drives the femme polymorphism of both Manning and shojo; and it’s the absence of romance which makes Lost Girls so frustratingly literal. With love, the most mundane incident can be charged with meaning and pleasure; without it, even meaning and pleasure lead only to a mundane contemplation of genitalia.

With its insistent cultivation of a female aesthetic, the decision to leave romance out of Lost Girls altogether seems strange. Even 15 years ago, before yaoi was around to show the way, a dollop of romance would have seemed a natural solution to the problem of creating artistic porn for all genders. Peter Pan, especially, is at least as much about repressed romance as it is about repressed sexuality — and Moore has said that he’d been turning over the idea of a pornographic Wendy long before he contemplated adding Dorothy and Alice. We know, too, from the rest of his oeuvre that Moore can do romance if he wants — Abby and Swamp Thing remain one of the most affecting couples in the history of mainstream comics, as far as I’m concerned.

The difficulty seems to be that Moore has very specific ideas about what pornography is and what it should do, and those, not coincidentally, happen to be precisely the things romance isn’t, and which it can’t accomplish. Romance is a genre devoted to a celebration of interconnection and complicated ties; it’s not just because he’s into bondage that one of Michael Manning’s books is titled In a Metal Web. For Moore, on the other hand, pornography is about splendid isolation. In a passage that is certainly intended to apply to Lost Girls itself, Moore has his lascivious hotel owner declare that, “Pornographies are the enchanted parklands where the most secret and vulnerable of our many selves can safely play…. They are the palaces of luxury that all the policies and armies of the outer world can never spoil, can never bring to rubble.” Sexual imagination, for Moore, is outside the demands and regulations of our government, our society, and even of ourselves. It is a means of experiencing freedom, both personal and political; an escape from entanglements.

Pornography does presuppose at least one connection, of course — that between the creator of the pornography and its consumer. This bond is to Lost Girls what love is to romance: the central, endlessly fascinating theme, both engine and end of the action. Instead of talking to a psychoanalyst, Dorothy, Alice and Wendy talk to each other, turning their traumatic Freudian relationships with various father-figures into deliberately arousing, pornographic narratives for the delectation of their friends — and, of course, for the reader as well. In repeated and insistent asides, each of the women talks about how turned on she is by the others’ narratives: Wendy, for example, admits that, “The more awful and dangerous these stories get, the more I want to play with myself.” This talking cure liberates not through simple revelation, but by turning an unmanageable network of relationships and desires into a single bond of functional arousal.

Freudian psychoanalysis is supposed to treat sexual neurosis and allow the patient to become reintegrated into society. Similarly, in Lost Girls pornography fixes various ailments, most involving a reluctance to have intercourse of one sort or another. There is a certain logic to this, anyway — if pornography is the cure, too little sex must be the disease. [Pre-Freudian therapists may even have agreed with Moore’s prescription. Hysteria, a commonly diagnosed ailment afflicting females in 19th century Europe, was often treated by bringing the patient to orgasm, sometimes through the use of vibrators, which were invented for the purpose.) Through profligate intercourse, Wendy ceases to be frigid. Alice is cured of her lesbianism, at least to the extent that she is now willing to have sex with men as well. Dorothy gets over her father fixation and talks, semi-seriously, about starting a family: I guess the fact that she’s the only one in the book who ever mentions birth control is supposed to suggest that, before dirty stories set her free, she was unreasonably worried about becoming pregnant.

If that’s a little snide — well, art as therapy has that effect on me. And while pornography as therapy at least has the benefit of novelty, I don’t see that it’s much different in kind. The tedious work of healing grinds on, and every encounter, whether with lover, enemy, wizard, elf, or double, is perceived through the monochrome fish-eye of self-actualization. As I noted above, sexualizing Oz, Wonderland, and Never-Never-Land doesn’t bother me, but turning these bizarre stories of nonsense and adventure into another pedestrian opportunity for personal growth is simply egregious. Moore has said he wanted to explore childhood sexuality without the hypocritical judgments usually attendant on such an exercise, but when it comes time to do so, what he comes up with is a bundle of trauma and some lame platitudes about embracing your inner lost girl.

Self-help manifestos are solipsistic by nature; nonetheless, they often try to present themselves as offering solutions to macrocosmic problems. After all, if everybody were happy within themselves, the world would be a better place, wouldn’t it? Moore buys the logic, anyway . Fucking and sucking in a heap of bodies and pleasures may seem politically innocuous — but Moore thinks otherwise, and to prove it he’s willing to drag an entire World War onto the scene. As German tanks roll towards the girls’ erotic idyll, the mere act of exchanging sexual fantasies and bodily fluids becomes pregnant with gynocentric political meaning. It’s brave little Eros vs. big bad Thanatos, and you’ll never look at an orgasm in quite the same way again.

I’m a good little liberal myself, and as such I’d much rather read Lost Girls than bomb Iraq. But to suggest that the first is some sort of meaningful resistance to the second seems kind of ridiculous. Sure, if you’re jerking off you’re not likely to be shooting anyone at the same time (though I guess you could if you were really determined). But you could say the same thing about shopping at Wal-Mart or taking a dump. So what?

Even if you want to see some sort of profound Jungian psycho-social link between creativity (sexual or otherwise) and violence, that link doesn’t have to be oppositional. Moore likes to quip that “War is a failure of imagination,” but why should we let imagination off the hook so easily? It’s hard to see, for example, how World War I could have happened without the help of a lot of violent fantasies filled with heroic nonsense — the exceedingly militaristic Peter Pan not least among them. Sexual imagination itself has led to preposterous amounts of violence, as Homer tells us. And you don’t have to be a fan of Andrea Dworkin to note that pornography may, occasionally, have something to do with the more unpleasant aspects of the sex industry.

Moore’s a thoughtful writer, and whatever his broader ideology, there are several instances in Lost Girls where porn and sexual imagination are shown to have a down side. Moore’s Peter Pan analogue, for example, grows from an over-sexed young urchin into an unpleasantly hardened male prostitute. And in Dorothy’s narrative, she realizes that her “horny little daydreams” about incest have ruined her step-mother’s life. This moment of clarity even contributes to Dorothy’s decision to stop fucking her father and leave home for Europe — though once there it doesn’t seem to have any moderating effect on her sex life.

Perhaps Moore’s most focused discussion of the damaging possibilities of erotic narratives involves Wendy. After fantasizing about sex with a dangerous child molester (Captain Hook), she semi-unconsciously seeks him out, and is almost killed as a result. In Faulkner’s novels, this sort of collaboration between victimizer and victim is a recurring theme, and is used to raise questions about how our dreams, identities, and destinies are attached to cultural expectations that we often can’t control, even when we recognize them. Led to the brink of such a depressing insight, Moore backpedals frantically, assuring us that Wendy’s real nemesis is not her fantasy per se, but rather her misguided feeling of responsibility for it. This is a big fat cop out, and the immediately following scene, wherein Wendy scares off the rapist by thrusting her cunt at him, was for me the least convincing in the whole book, and perhaps the only one that felt genuinely exploitative.

This failure of nerve is emblematic of the book as a whole. Moore and Gebbie make extravagant claims for pornography, but (or perhaps because?) they don’t really seem to have faith in the genre. Do readers really need to be constantly assured that they’re fighting the man and/or finding themselves in order for it to be okay to read a book with explicit sex in it? Porn has some ugly implications, but so do most genres and mediums, from the police state paranoia of superheroes, to the militarism of science-fiction, to the casual disregard of life in mystery novels, to, for that matter, the gushy disempowerment of romance. It would be a surprise if they didn’t, considering that all are part and parcel of a reality, which is, after all imperfect. Despite what some critics of porn might tell you, that’s not a reason to stop imagining (as if such a thing were possible), or to endorse censorship, or even to wallow in guilt. But it is something to think about before you ram a dildo up your ass and call it freedom.

A version of this essay first ran in The Comics Journal.

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Michael Manning is going to contribute to a symposium on the Gay Utopia which I am organizing. The symposium should be online in late January or early February. Other contributors will include Ursula K. Le Guin, Johnny Ryan, Dame Darcy, Neil Whitacre, Lilli Carré, Bert Stabler, and lots of other folks.